A Case of the Eff- Its

I started on a fitness challenge with my sister-in-law at the beginning of the month -our goal was to lose 5 pounds, that's all, a measly 5 pounds in 31 days and our overall goal is 10 pounds by October 1st.
All I really want is to be able to lose the weight that I've gained since moving to Oregon; to fit into the clothes that I moved out here with because as it stands I am very limited to wearable clothes in my wardrobe, and this goal would do that. Right now I'm the heaviest I've ever been, and that's not a great feeling. I want to feel good; I want to look good; I want improvement.

I've been working out 4-5 days a week, eating under 1,000 calories nearly every day (I say nearly because I had a couple bad days, but I really do mean a couple...as in two), and my working out has been an intense cardio workout program, but you know what....I haven't lost a single pound. How is that possible?
Not only am I not reaping the benefits of my recent healthy habits, but I'm getting overly annoyed by everyone always asking me "how many calories are you at today?", "how many calories is that?", "did you add ________ to your list of calories today?", "did you work out today?", blah, blah, blah. I started this for me and somehow it's turning into a huge deal that everyone constantly nags me about. Unfortunately I'm one of those people that the more you force me to do something, the more I'm not going to do it just to make a point- to prove that I make my own decisions. Yes, I am that ridiculously stubborn.

These two things together are creating a big case of the f@$% its for me. I'm tempted to say f@$% it to the diet, f@$% it to the workout program, and f@$% it every time someone gives me their opinion on how well or not well I'm doing with my diet. I'm not giving up, definitely not giving up, but I'm getting a little discouraged...okay, really discouraged. I hope I start seeing some results soon. I need to remember why I started this and get back to that mentality.  This certainly didn't start because I wanted people's approval, it wasn't to prove anything to anyone, it was to be healthy and be happy in my own skin.

So day number 23 starts tomorrow (technically today), and I have 8 days to shred these first 5 pounds.
I can do this, I can do this, I can do this....I hope I can do this...