What A Crappy Day

Today is most definitely an awful day.

I'm sick. Still. I've been sick for about 95% of 2012. I don't know what my problem is, but I'll be going to the doctor again when John gets home from work. I had a horrible cold a couple weeks ago, and it's turned into an even worse sinus infection (at least that's what I've diagnosed it as, we'll know officially when I go to the doctor tonight). Hopefully this is the last of the bad health luck I've been having.

On top of that one of my old teachers died. She battled cancer for a long time and now she doesn't need to fight anymore. She was truly a wonderful person. Her faith was truly inspiring. I've never met anyone like her, and I wasn't even that close to her. But my brother was, and I had to break the news to him today. He's taking it really hard. I understand why, but I think he has a lot of regrets in not telling her how much she meant to him. I feel really bad for him and all the other people who are feeling the same thing right now. I know that feeling, and it's the worst feeling in the world to have.

It's not just a bad day for us, it's a bad day all around. My mom had to go to a friend's funeral today. One of her dearest and oldest friends. Her friend had developed a really bad drug habit and it eventually killed her. My mom and her friend's family are taking it really hard. My mom has had to face her own demons when it comes to addiction and she tried to help her friend, but it was one of those situations where she had to remove herself from her friend or be pulled back down with her. I'm glad my mom stepped back, and she is too, but I think it's left her with her own feelings of regret.

My prayers go out to Mrs. Anderson's family as they mourn her passing, and my prayers go out to my mom's friend's family as well because a parent should never have to bury a child.