My Struggle

I'm trying so hard to be at peace with not being pregnant yet but I'm struggling. Everywhere I turn family and friends are having babies and getting pregnant. All my friends want to talk about is how they're getting ready for their babies, how they're getting ready to start trying, how their pregnancy is going, posting pictures of their bellies and their new babies and here I am, still trying to get pregnant with nothing to say. No big announcement. No surprise picture. Nothing.

My old sorority sends out alumni newsletters every month to keep us all updated on how each other is doing and because most of our group are now moms or soon to be moms they want to start adding a little insert about mommyhood and their kids. That was announced tonight, and it felt like a slap in the face.

I really am trying so incredibly hard to be okay with the waiting process, but I can't tell you how many times I've cried about it not happening yet.